this fucking universe will never let us win

When I think about it, the only way you can go through this world–this life–without bursting a vein in the head or tearing your hair out or spiraling down into madness is to just feel everything not too intensely, build walls around your heart and brain, internalize.

But I think, now, that method won’t help at all. Even when you feel things intensely or force apathy and heartlessness, you can’t get out of feeling. One day, everything will just pile up. Overflow. Flood out. Explode. Or implode. The walls you’ve built will be torn down with the force of that flood. Or explosion. Whatever.

The three things I mentioned earlier: bursting a vein in the head, tearing your hair out, spiraling down into madness–it would still fucking happen. No matter what you do. You can’t win. The universe will never let us fucking win.

It’s funny that I only write in this blog when I’m really sad. Lol. Whatever.

Talk later.

 

 

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